nonsense

Do you ever get what you wanted and realize it's not what you thought? And then it ends and you know that the end is what needed to be? Even though it doesn't bring the relief you thought it would?

I did.

Do you ever look at what God has been and is and realize you are no longer the same? And then something happens to make you stop and look at what things really are? Even though it brings the pain and guilt you didn't think it would?

I did.

Saying goodbye to yesterday. Embracing today.

Back in business

After a healthy dose of family "guilt," I have decided to renew my blog entrying with a new resolve.

I just went home this past weekend to participate in a family-wide cleanup effort. The sisters were each responsible for their own rooms. Thanks to Dad, we were armed with dust masks as we tackled the years' accumulation of gray matter on and behind all our "treasured" objects. Some of the things we kept! Fish supplies for fish who met their demise long ago. Hand sanitizer that was a dark brown watery liquid. Apology notes from sisters that end with: Your friend (I hope). Rules explicitly outlining appropriate sister interactions in a car driven by a sister.

Truly an amusing and sentimental trip down memory lane (although it's dustier than I had imagined:)). How loved and cared for we all were. The depth of our family's committment and devotion to each other is both settling and rebuking at the same time. Especially as a teacher, I can personally vouch for the rarity of a family like mine. Something to be humbled by, really.

It's good to be back - thanks faithful blog checkers!